To die at each night
A new hell to emerge from the next day
Breathless and gasping with cumulative naivety
If every journey has a thousand beginnings
May my hell and your waters meet
To form new land
That I may walk for the first time
She calls me at dawn
Her voice adapts to my slow sleepy drawl
And I give in completely
The bitch
I fucking love her.
Fuck it.
Let’s wrap it up.
I can’t wait for Jesus and his lawyers.
Earth is adjourned.
Bring on the nukes.
Set the sky on fire.
Vaporize. Everything. Beautiful.
Misty-eyed she sighed
In me she chooses to confide
she'd make a beautiful bride.
Porcelain princess once pretty as pink
Had too many disco biscuits I think
she' s unconscious now, by the sink.
I stepped over her to get my drink.
She does have nice ink though.
It seeps through her veins in a puddle on the kitchen floor.
Deep in a chemical dream, all gossamer and green,
To wake her up now would be obscene.
She will rise eventually
on her own steam.
Again.
These ways are set in stone.
Rock steady, always ready, head heavy, alone.
Microseconds and months trade places like clockwork;
Seasons blend into each other silently
Like 4 rocks, 2 fingers and a little water.
Everything grows.
Older.
You never get to smell the roses
When you run at a hundred miles an hour
You never get back wasted time
Just like you’ll never have another first car
Clichés
But clichés often ring true
It was me you see
It really wasn’t you
You make me feel ten feet tall
I put you on a pedestal
I waited for you to fall.
And all these contradictions
Are doing my head in
I can’t move forward
I can’t go in reverse
Limbo is what they call it
I think
It’s funny,
All this time in one place
Makes you realize
The roses aren’t that pretty
It’s the thorns that make them pink
On a bench under the flood-lit evening's
orange hue that makes the lines on his hands seem ...deeper
as if etched by time, and moulded stronger.
It's been a long day and its a long way home.
The upstart rides his bike in figure-eights around lampposts and billboards
no worries, no cares, no bills, no distant stares.
Its way past the time he should've been home
the whole world for the taking but it seems like he doesn't want it.
The fool.
He'd kill to go back to when he was that young, and there were new prospects on the ever widening horizon.
He has no new milestone.
He has no awakening future.
His days have been lived.
His choices made.
And its too late to make amends for a life he didn't dream of living.
The train inches into its designated platform
to take him home, to a warm cup of soup, the 11 o'clock news
and black and white memories of glory days now so empty.